Illogicality

Sometimes, my illogicalities are strange. Beforehand, I might have indeed considered something illogical. But then, when I'm faced with it, it's kind of different. As unreasonable as it is, I've found myself so inclined to touch water to see how hot it is, when it's in the process of boiling. People should know overdosing is not good. But when I'm five months behind on medication, what if I just took another? Don't worry, I'm not going to kill my liver like that though.

Anyway, I slept for a while in the afternoon today, despite the heat. I had really strange dreams again. It was sometime in the evening when there was this storm, a rather serious one. The noise was terrifying and the wind raging through every window and door could literally sweep you off your feet. So I ran around closing every opening to the house. Went outside after it stopped later, it was rather dark at night. This segment of the dream.. I feel like I've had before. It was raining. As soon as I stepped outside, my neighbors' dog runs up to me and starts jumping in circles around me. Scary as heck, because I'm afraid of being bitten. Not in my dream, my neighbors actually have a little white dog. I don't know how it managed to become a dog that is taller than me when it stands up on its two back paws. Anyway, this hand comes out and beckons the dog from my neighbors' garage door and it immediately gives up its relentless jumping. At the end of the culdesac, there's this other man playing with a stubby brown and white dog. I don't remember the name of the breed. This dream is oddly familiar. Like the one about the crosses, I feel like I've had it before.

Not much to say other than that. I don't put so much effort into friendship anymore, I just realized that. My relationships almost always end up strained. Mostly at my fault. I'm one of those people that you just either get annoyed with or bored of rather quickly. My family can deal with that easily. They're used to it. Other people can't. Since I'm one of those Americans who isn't very good at making the distinction between humans and animals, my dogs are very much like my friends. I guess that's good.